Hello readers. I apologize for the long absence, it’s been long time since I have been able to sit down and write, but I finally have time and something important to write about.
I am an against-the-flow type of guy. Those of you who personally know me know this far too well. I do my own thing, regardless of what others think. Resulting in half of my university campus convinced I am 100% stoned about 90% of the time, but oh well.
But sometimes you have to go with the flow. Not because you want to, but because you have exhausted yourself so much in the fight upstream you convince yourself you can’t fight anymore. You condemn yourself to floating, in the flow but not part of it and wishing to God you could find the strength to take the fight up again.
This last month has been a really trying time; not only for me but for a lot of people whom I am really close to. I have seen several friends overcome by their demons, and others, including myself, just getting by. We all lean on each other, but amidst it all there is the overwhelming feeling of loneliness, emptiness, and despair. We fight a seemingly losing battle, and even combined we can do nothing.
Despair is so prevalent and so powerful. And it is that despair that convinces us that there is no mercy, no hope, no joy. That we are alone.
As Catholics, we believe that Christ’s mercy is boundless and that He is always willing to forgive, but we convince ourselves that our sin is too awful, that our failure is too great. That we are monsters.
And we are right. We are monstermen, who do monstrous things. And in our despair we hate ourselves, convinced that Christ cannot love us, that there is no mercy.
But it is there that we are so wrong.
Christ in the beautiful mystery of the Incarnation became a monsterman. He is one of us. He understands our struggles more than we do ourselves. He struggled just as the rest of us did because He IS a monsterman. THE Monsterman.
In the face of this, we know we have hope. We know that Christ will always be merciful, always be loving. We know that we are not as alone as we feel, for Christ is always with us, strengthening us in our time of need.
We only need to turn to Him.
And through Him and His boundless love, we can find the strength not only to forgive ourselves for our failure but also find the strength to pick ourselves up and fight the current once more.
And through Him, and Him alone, we can win.
My challenge to you guys this time around is to forgive. Forgive yourselves, forgive others. And keep on fighting.
God bless you all 🙂